Dear Annie: Please help me. I am in my mid-40s and have been with a man for seven and a half years. He has four children who I absolutely adore. His youngest is 12. We started dating when she turned 5. We have had them full time for the past seven years. I have gotten pregnant five times with this man. There were three miscarriages and two other babies who passed away due to complications at birth. My son had no lungs; he was born at 20 weeks. My daughter passed away in 2017 at eight days old.
This man has never had a single conversation with me about any of the babies that passed away. But he will talk to family members and co-workers freely about it.
He cheated on me at least two times that I know of, though he denies it to this day.
This past October, I moved six hours away from our home in Massachusetts up to the Canadian border. He and the kids were supposed to come, but he pulled out at the last minute and has left me in limbo with where we stand.
I cry a lot over missing the older kids back home.
Please help me to understand why I’m holding onto something that is a lost cause.
In addition to being untrustworthy, untruthful and uncommunicative, he is not very kind, appreciative or affectionate toward me. He would often diminish my feelings and make me second-guess my own feelings. He has never stuck up for me or backed me up, ever.
When I try to communicate with him, I’ll say something like, “Hey, can we talk?” and he says, “We are talking.”
Not only did I take care of him and his kids for the past seven years. I also drove him to work and picked him up everyday with not so much as a thank you.
My main question is, what in the world is wrong with me? Why am I more concerned with what he wants than what I want? Why am I holding on to a loveless, unhappy relationship?
I love living up North. It’s beautiful. I have no intention of ever going back to Massachusetts. I truly feel like I lived in a foreign land my whole life and I’m finally home.
Please give…
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